Surviving Cancer My Way.
I remember the day so clear even after so many years have passed. March 8, 1999.
May this blog help you or a friend through your cancer journey. May it give you trust in the outcome, and the process. It can be done.
Flashback! Wow, a trip I did not expect but the way I dealt with it was totally “my way”. May not have been right, and certainly not everyone would agree with my chosen path, but I am here today to let you know, you can survive.
Long story short, saw my Dr. was referred to surgeon on Friday. Monday morning, I received a call to come to the office. I didn’t feel concerned, but when I saw the doctors face in the exam room, I knew something wasn't good. I was told that I had third stage breast cancer. My first reaction was Oh F**k and then life changed.
From here, an unfolding story, and 14 days after my first treatment I was in the shower and ended up holding my hair in my hands and watch it go down the drain. I stood there and cried but I guess that's normal, so I decided to make a magic shower. Again, this was my way in which my shower had magic diamond water that cut cancer from my body. As I showered, I would wipe my arms, body and legs and flushed the cancer down the drain. At times, I felt so many emotions I now wonder how I got through it all.
I did not go by the books; I did not read all the literature on things that could go wrong during treatment. I had my port-a-cath put in while I was awake and then proceeded to have my first chemo treatment. I met two other amazing people in treatment and we always sat together during our visits. We each knew we would get through this, and we did.
Happenings & Obstacles Along the Way:
My Oncologist told me it was my mindset that helped me survived. How we perceive an illness is half the battle. There is much more to this story but really the point is it's how we look at life, our perception of how we deal with it. My Way, is not for everyone, but it was how I personally dealt with it and how I survived to help other people get through their dance with cancer.
I now offer a small 1:1 Virtual program called “I CAN & I WILL”, that gives my client emotional support during or after their treatments. They are individual to each clients needs.
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Living through a pandemic was an different experience for us all.
Trying to find the “new” normal can be a challenge if you allow it to be but life goes on.
We have had and survived many outbreaks over the years and this one has stepped up a bit and we have to be careful and safe in all aspects.
It’s all about Perspective and how we see the new normal and I don’t mind wearing a mask if it protects people as we don’t want ill health for anyone.
So keep yourself busy even if you work from home. Take breaks, dance in the living room, journal how you are feeling, call a friend, whatever it takes to keep you going and not allowing you to become a victim of the pandemic.
If you have kids, color with them, dance with them to change up their day as well.
So moving forward, we will get through this, change is necessary for everyone and before long all will feel normal again.
The Speed of Time
For those of you who believe in time, and how long a day is, or how old a person is that is great. For me, there seems to be no time it just flies by so quickly.
Today I was going to blog about this very special day for me. Mostly, because time and survival all go hand in hand.
As I pondered today, about March 8 I looked up my old blog and there it was right in front of me. That was only one year ago but where did that year go?
So as we worry about appointments and chores that “have” to be done, think about what you will be doing one year from now, or what were you doing on this day last year or better still, what were you doing on March 8, 1999?
Time defines us at times and we are so busy staying on schedule we forget what time really is. Time is life. Live your life. Enjoy each moment no matter how silly it seems. Be happy you woke up this morning. Time is Awesome!
Some feel they get out of the rat race or commuting every day, or working with a person you would rather not spend time with, or missing a great friend at work.
Personally, I really do not miss doing the commute or the 9-5 routine as I prefer to make my own work schedule and that is the big plus of being self-employed.
I do miss working in general, as I am not one to sit around and watch TV or knit etc. I am now embarking on additional training for my business and loving every day of it. Learning is good and helping others with your knowledge is even better.
With my new freedom, I am now enjoying my work as I travel and visit with friends or just see a new place. These Day Spa’s are enjoyable and I meet so many new people and get to explore new places as well. I still have day clinic by appointment when I am home.
Therefore, whatever you call retirement, mine is simply enjoying life.
This is my most favorite time of year and I love the smell of fall. Most people take in the colors which are so awesome. During my time in BC I missed the change in seasons as it is more subtle than Ontario and our colors are truly amazing in various places.
When we use all 5 senses within our body we explore a wider range of enjoyment.
So let's see if you can play along today or any day you are out for a walk in the fresh air or the rain as even rain has a smell. Also notice your dog stopping along the walk as they smell new things as well.
Use Your 5 Senses
Our body receives sensory information through these senses and can be fine tuned if used on a regular basis.
Notice the colors and shapes
What sound do you hear?
Try to notice the smell of fall in the air
Do you notice a taste to the autumn air?
Our taste receptors of the mouth and throat are: salt, sweet, bitter, sour etc
And finally touch. Perhaps pick up a leaf, or reach out and touch a tree
We can breathe better during the fall especially if you live where humidity is high, which is one of the reasons it's my special time of year.
Enjoy your day and walk in our wonderful free air and just observe.
I thought about all the blogs I do about people, today felt like the animals should share this space. Our fur kids and like family so treat them well while we have them.
Energy Medicine/Therapy whatever you choose to call it works on everything. Birds early in the morning sing so loud and put all their heart into that song. Have you ever notices while out walking early that all the birds are trying to outdo the other? Then as the day progresses the birds are still there, but much more muted.
Animals are especially interesting and since I am certified as a BodyTalk practitioner and also BodyTalk for Animals, I have met some interesting energies while working with new clients.
I love my work as it came so natural to me as a young child. At that time I had no idea I would ever be working helping pets with various issues.
I grew up in the country on a small farm and there were no kids to play with. I had a younger brother and the farm animals leave and that was it. I spent many hours carrying on conversations with the horses, the sheep, the cats and dogs, a raccoon and deer, so to me I was normal. Since I was very young, I have been able to pick up on energies from animals, people, trees, and of course buildings.
The part that often clients don’t understand, is that if a dog has a problem, many times it is coming from/through the human/owner, of it can be another person that the dog has spent time near. At times, the session is more about the owner than the dog, although both are receiving the same benefits so it can go back and forth during one session.
For those who do not understand energy medicine this, it can be very discerning and they may feel there is a problem with the session. Not so. If my client the dog, is suffering from high anxiety, a very good guess is that the owner or someone near the dog has one or more issues around this also. Animals pick up on our energy even more than most people know. I’ve gone to homes where there were two pets in the room and I can pick up on which one has the problem the owner has called me about.
When I had my own place, later on, I raised a baby raccoon (Rocky) who turned out to be a female. Her mother had been killed on the road and there she stood on her hind feet, little arms swinging, so I picked her up and took her home.
She lived in the house with us and went out when she wanted, knocked on the door when she wanted back in and to me this was alright. One of my visitors nearly fainted when she asked to use my washroom. One of Rocky’s favorite sleeping places was in the bathroom sink, curled up so comfy. Of course, I forgot where she was and you can imagine the ending.
Rocky rode on my shoulder and often came for a car ride with me to the local store.
As time passed she would spend more and more time outside on her own and after thinking something happened to her and looking all over the 11 acres she showed up early one morning with her common squeak meaning where’s my treat. Thrilled I ran to the door and there she sat at the bottom of the steps and behind her on the walkway were 4 little Rockies! She stood up with a warning to look but don’t come any closer and we understood each other. I returned with one of her favorite treats, and she left with her little ones for their new home. Often I would meet her on the property but no more touching as she had found her natural place in the wild. Much later in life, I found out people referred to me as the crazy lady that lives in the trees.
Often family leaves, and so do pets as our time here is just a number.
The rainbow bridge helps some over the rainbow to peace and love beyond the stars. My work now feels so rewarding and often I work with clients who send such loving notes, it is incredible.
With Much Love
I woke in the night as I often do, as I auto write as I’ve done for a while now. Thoughts and ideas just appear on paper once I begin. It was like a little movie replay for me this time and I wondered why? Then the light bulb came on - March 8.
In 1999 my life changed drastically. It was Friday and had been to the doctor with yet another lump and they usually drained off the fluid and home I went. I had what is called Fibrocystic breasts and they really never caused much problem as they are cysts. He sent me to a specialist as they could not drain my new lump.
So Monday, March 8 I received a phone call to come back to clinic the same day! Off I went to meet the second doctor wondering what was going on.
My journey began that morning. I could see the doctor and the nurse were visibly concerned and were expecting the worse from me I guess. In a very quiet voice the doctor stated. "Carol you have breast cancer". I sat there kind of frozen in time but said nothing. Then I asked - "how bad is it?" The doctor said it was Stage 3 advanced and a tear rolled down his cheek. I’ll never forget this scene and I felt so bad for this man who likely new my chances may not be all that great.
My reaction of course is typically Carol - "well Doc that’s not too bad out of 10".
He sadly looked at me and said, Carol there are only 4 stages of cancer.
My answer, well I see 3.5 out of 10 in my world. If a cat can have 9 lives then I can have 10. And, who made that stupid rule about cancer anyway?
Off I went to the first cancer clinic which didn’t last very long. I sat for over two hours with my Mom and they kept calling numbers and people would get up and go, so I went to reception and asked why I had waited so long only to find out they had been calling my number, but of course I was waiting for them to call my name. Not a good start. Next I was put in a small room and again the “wait” and finally a young boy came in announcing that the doctor was busy and he was a student and was going to do the exam. OK I was already a train wreck at this point so I left. I simply walked out and went home. I had become a Number and after two plus hours they reassured me by sending a student to deal with me. Don’t get me wrong I have great respect for anyone becoming a doctor, but it was the state-of-mind I was in and the panic that brought on my reaction.
Long story short I went home called my doctor and told him I wanted to go to Kingston for my treatments, not Ottawa and I ask to see a specific doctor as well. He made it happen but was not pleased with me.
So the journey of treatments began in April and lasted until December 24th.
I was given choices and as of today I made the correct one. I took the higher/more aggressive choice and yes it damned near killed me but I got through it all, including radiation with extra shots!
Yes, I lost all my hair. I felt so very alone during this time except for my Mother and my cousin who lived up the street and her husband. I was walked out on by a new boyfriend I had met just before Christmas and by April he left just before my first treatment.
Of course my old pal Max was beside me every day and both my grown children visited as they lived out of town. My Mom bought me two long haired goats and she soon claimed one as they both needed much attention. At times that empty feeling drifts into my memory, but life did not stay empty for long. It's part of the process.
I was very lucky to grow up with the word Believe most of my life doings. I have a wonderful way of seeing things differently than most people.
It was scary to say the least and I lost friends as some thought they may “catch” it if they were around me. Another, didn’t like the fact that I smoked marijanna to keep from being sick (which the doctor OK’d) so one little lady stood by me every trip even with her own illness and drove me to and from appointments till the end.
The reason for this blog is letting you all know that Cancer can be beaten, no matter what some say. The biggest lesson I learned from that journey was that lifestyle and stress can kill you. Not eating properly can kill you. And most of all Mindset can get you through almost anything that life throws at you.
It’s not easy changing the thoughts on the inside. By no means is this a walk in the park and you don’t wake up the next morning a new person. Nope.
So if this helps any one of you in any way, just remember all life can be a challenge and I will write more about that in another post.
You have to Believe things can be different, that you are feeling better than you actually are, that you have already beaten this horrible dis-ease and that you can carry on a normal life.
I now enjoy my work so much, often helping clients with major issues.
The way we choose to think about things each and every day and why we need crutches to get us through a day is just that - a crutch.
I run a 5 week program called I CAN AND I WILL at the St Thomas clinic. These sessions include coaching, an energy healing session and of course the mindset that got me through my journey. Distance Program is also available for those who are not nearby.
If you or someone you know is going through a difficult time, get in touch with me and we will talk.
Make each day special in some little way. The sun always comes up on the road to recovery.
Have you ever sat and watched people? In a mall, at the park, while you wait in line, while sitting at a red light and many more places.
When I was much younger our parents took us to most social functions as we didn't have baby sitters in my era. Children attended dances, strawberry socials, church dinners as an outing and a chance to meet new people. As a child I was very aware of energy given off by people in general, although at the time I had no idea what it was all about.
I would say to my Dad, "how come that man is so angry; or why is that lady sad? My father would brush it off with an answer that satisfied me at the time but if I had known then what I know now - wow! I remember people telling me I had a beautiful smile but of course I could never see it from the inside. So today I am thinking about Smile Therapy.
Instead of finding fault or judging others perhaps a new self therapy would work. The world has so much anger and hate I feel a few smiles would help things out.
Each face you meet, give them a smile, observe their eyes, are they sad or bright or dark? No words are necessary when you smile; it seems it's a universal language that may brighten someone's day.
Imagine the city workers who go out very early in the morning to do their job, it's often cold or wet this time of year. Often they are cleaning up after thoughtless people who don't care about their city. The worker then crosses paths with an early morning person that sends them the brightest smile. Wow! Their day was made so much better.
If you gave your smile to everyone you meet for just one day, can you imagine how you may make that person's day a whole lot better.
On of my favorite things is people watching - observing life, as I work in energy therapy and tend to pick up on vibrations around me. A smile says so many things if not in words. Try it for yourself.
Dealing with Stress - My Way
Much of the population is dealing with stress - the biggest culprit of today.
My personal stress level on a scale of low to high would be med/high, while other people would rate theirs medium. We each have different levels where it kicks in and throws us for a loop.
Why Am I Feeling This Way?
A few weeks ago I received a call around 6:30 a.m. from my 39 year old daughter saying she thinks she may have had a mini stroke. I flew out of bed and took her to Emergency, and yes she did indeed have a full blown stroke AND two more in three days! There was blood clot behind her eye! The day before she was discharged the tests found she also had a hole in her heart, which was likely there at birth.
Meanwhile during this week her Dad had three doctors' appointments between hospital visits.
Everyone returned home things are going pretty good.
Next, another call after 6:30 a.m. saying we had to take Dad to Emerge. Since then he has been moved to Palliative care and we visit daily to keep his spirits up.
Do I Cope well with Stress? No.
Ways I Personally Cope … not for everyone.
I grab a book and just chill out, get into the story (fiction) and away from thinking so much about my troubles.
Not for everyone - but I love making homemade soup and I create some interesting mixes that seem to go over well.
Like I said, these are my personal little traits that help me - you will find your own.
When I'm busy I tend not to think a lot about current levels of anxiety. Some weeks I should have the cleanest place in town.
Just taking my dog Molly out for a stroll around the Avenues helps as she explores under every pile of leaves she can find. I have to laugh and this releases what's going on with life.
We all have our own way of dealing with daily life so find an activity that keeps that stress level down for you.
And of course do your Cortices Technique as many times as required as is has amazing results and balances the hemispheres of the brain. If you don't know what it is enjoy this FREE CORTICES cortices_how-to.pdf or watch the video on my website.
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Oh Baby - Talk About Energy
There has been a lot of talk and experiences around the Solar Eclipse and the Mercury Retrograde that's been happening, and I have to admit it has been doing a number on my energy field.
Some things I could not explain and then began looking into the effects a little deeper. I also discovered that Mercury Retrograde was the underlying little devil for a lot of what was happening in my daily routine. Nothing major but Wow did it throw my life off balance and into a tail spin at times.
It runs August 12 - September 5 so I am laying low until it passes perhaps being more observant.
I could list half dozen things that have happened during this time that were not normal in my routine and I'm betting a lot of you have had similar experiences.
Communication and technology (my computer went crazy) are normal as well as anxiety for no reason. I found by doing the Cortices Technique (video) on myself which kept me minimally sane, but when your computer shuts down, goes black for no apparent reason while in the middle of something you have to get out…. Really, I just wanted to crawl back into bed and cover up some days.
So if any of you have been feeling the "Stuff" just ride it out, it's not all you. You may experience relationship or financial issues etc. It will pass so journal you way through it, let your feelings out to help release what may be happening.
My work is in energy healing so I am very sensitive of what I feel around me which can be a great thing, so for now I am just enjoying the ride.
My Blog is about my every day life and also about life in general. You may also see a post about my rescue fur kids. This is a place for you to get to know me. Enjoy!